Lately I haven't felt much like writing. I don't even really know if anyone actually reads my blog anymore. But for anyone interested in what is happening on a medical level, I had the mastectomy a couple weeks ago and I seem to be healing fine. I also agreed to the reconstructive surgery and I am not 100% sure this is the right choice for me. I just keep plugging along. There doesn't seem to be anymore cancer and that is good. And probably no radiation in the immediate future for me and that is good too I think. Oh, and that 8 centimeter tumor--now the doctor thinks it was never really 8 centimeters--but rather a bunch of little cancer cells spread over an 8 centimeter path. What else can I tell you?
A diagnosis of cancer is not fun. It is in fact scary because you could die from cancer and the unknown is always more frightening than what is known. But what is cancer, really? From everything I've read, cancer is basically cells gone wild. A cell, as you must remember from high school biology, is the basic building block of the human body. Everything is composed of cells. There is a mechanism in each cell that tells it what it's going to be. Sometimes a cell doesn't turn into anything and remains at a primitive level. Usually the immune system through the lymph nodes and the lymph system carry those primitive cells out of the body. But, not always.
To keep it simple, the tumor forms when it is dividing so rapidly that the immune system cannot carry it out. It could be a break down in the immune system, it could be hormonal, it could be related to how the body metabolizes food sugars; because the cells are primitive they eat all the sugar in that area of the body quicker than the other cells. And that is why it is important to eat healthy foods and exercise and try and keep a positive attitude.
To be honest with you, I always wonder just how much cancer I really had in my breast and was it really necessary to go to this extreme. And, I will never know the answer to that question............